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Hey Friends! This post is raw and real and details the blogging challenges I’m currently facing. I’m not gonna lie and say that it’s easy for me to put this out there…because it’s not. It’s not easy to admit when you’re having a hard time with something that’s important to you.
It’s the opposite.
It’s very difficult to be vulnerable when the message you hear most often is “fake it til you make it”, when you’re told by more experienced bloggers to put up a front that you’ve got it all together even when you don’t. But I want this space to be one that’s 100% honest, one where vulnerability is given some breathing room and it’s okay to show that it’s not always sunshine and roses.
As humans we are constantly growing, experiencing highs and lows, we have moments of epiphany as well as those of confusion. We live through challenges and triumphs, big and small. This blogging journey of mine is just as much a part of that as anything else. And that’s why I’ve decided to share this with you.
Unable To See The Forest For The Trees
Sometimes, you gotta take a step back. Sometimes, you get so much into the thick of things, working so hard, that you get lost along the way. You look up and see where you are and wonder…
Is this where I wanted to be by now?
Is this the direction I was hoping to go?
What was my end goal again?
At the end of 2017, those are the questions I was asking. I felt lost. Confused. Inadequate.
That’s why I’ve been a little MIA these past 2 months. A LOT of “life” happened at the end of the 2017 and I needed to take a step back and gain a bit of perspective.
2017 started out with a grand vision of where I wanted Coffee + Moxie to be at this point.
- I wanted to nail down my niche. To know exactly how I can share my interests in a way that allows me to have a creative outlet and help/inspire/entertain others in the process. For a while in 2017, I wrote primarily on time management and productivity topics because that’s what I was focusing on as a budding blogger. But I was getting burnt out pretty quickly on writing solely about those things and “blogging blues” set in.
- I wanted to have my strategy and management of all the moving parts associated with running a blog set in place. (Because let’s be honest, running a blog entails waaaaay more than typing together a string of sentences and hitting publish. There’s post planning, editing, SEO, images, content upgrades, collaborations and networking, newsletters, social media, promotion, etc.) When you don’t have the proper systems in place, all of that stuff can get overwhelming really quickly. It definitely is to this mama of two toddlers with a husband who works irregular long hours. Thinking about it now, kind of ironic I didn’t manage to pull this off considering I wrote about productivity for a while.
- I wanted to find “my people”. While my audience has grown, it’s hard to say if my readers belong to a solid group with similar interests or if the interests are scattered. The thing is, I know it’s going to take to time to find my tribe…the women/mamas who live and breathe the same interests/challenges as I do. And that’s okay.
Where Does That Put Me Today In My Blogging Journey?
Suffice it to say I’m not quite where I envisioned.
I went into this thing thinking it would be a piece of cake but reality soon hit that it was anything but. I’ve always been the type of person that wants to get it right the first time. I fear making a decision that could lead to failure.
I look twice before I leap. I am a classic, textbook over thinker. (In fact, this post pretty much describes me to a T)
With my blog, that meant I wanted to know exactly what I was going to write about, have hundreds of ideas for post topics and be sure that I was going to great at it.
And did that happen?
I have never questioned myself more than I have in this past year trying to shape my blog into something that reflects who I am as a person. When you’re in this space, you meet many bloggers who have nailed it. They know exactly who they are, what their message is, and how they can help their readers. These bloggers know they’ve found their sweet spot and have reader engagement to prove it.
For somebody like me who is still trying to find her voice, that’s extremely intimidating. It causes me to question my ability and whether I have any right to do this. It’s difficult when you feel like blogging was put on your heart for a reason but you’re not yet sure why.
Because in full transparency, I’m still trying to figure it out.
Moving Forward In Spite of Everything
Lately, I’m realizing that it’s okay to not have it all figured out right now. It’s okay to try new things, to explore different topics and test things out. It’s okay to “throw spaghetti against the wall” and see what sticks for me.
As much as I want to know that something will pan out before I put the effort in…
As much as I want to avoid the risk of failure…
When my options are to either deliberate endlessly and attempt to foresee the future (something I’m not very good at, I admit;)) or take a step forward and see where I land, I think the choice is pretty clear.
Sometimes we’re called to take a leap of faith and just keep going.
God knows me.
He knows my heart and that I want Coffee + Moxie to be a place that inspires and helps others.
He knows my struggles and He knows exactly what I need to grow past this. He will lead me to clarity in His time.
I have faith in that.
Until then, my plan is to press forward, to try that spaghetti trick and see what happens. 🙂
What Lies Ahead For Coffee And Moxie
My current plan is to share more about the things I’m interested in:
- Books I love
- Fashion and Beauty
- Home decor I drool over
Voicing my challenges:
- Paying off debt and money-saving tips and tricks that I learn along the way
- Goals I’m working towards
- Making a home out of our somewhat-dated apartment with rental-friendly solutions (Scared of this challenge TBH! There are soooo many gorgeous picture perfect spaces that I struggle to share images of mine in comparison)
A peek into our daily lives:
- Ways we like to spend time together
- Family Outings
This season, I want to give myself the freedom to just try things out without putting pressure on myself to get it right.
My Word For This Season: Grace
I want to give myself the grace…
- to be wrong
- to make mistakes
- to take time when I need it
- to grow slow
- to enjoy the process
- to embrace failure and learn from it
- to pivot when I need to
- to admit if something isn’t working
- to celebrate when something is
So that’s it. That’s where Coffee and Moxie stands today. In a season of testing, learning and figuring out what makes this space special and unique.
And with that I wanted to ask you, the one who is reading this:
What brought you to my little corner of the web? What do you enjoy about it? What do you hope to see more of? This space is just as much for you as it is for me and that’s why it’s important for me to learn more about YOU. Can you share with me in the comments or email me at hello (at) coffeeandmoxie (dot) com?
I’m so thankful that you’re here and I want you to know that it is on my heart to make this a beautiful, fun and inspiring place for you to visit. I hope that by sharing more of my story, my interests, and struggles that it encourages you and brightens your day in some way!
Til next time, Friend. Much love!